I just don't understand:
-what i'm showing you wrong
-why i'm not mature enough
-what i'm missing out on
-how i'm being isolated
-how i'm not ready
-how staying will benefit me
-how you're so ignorant
-how you don't see how bad I want this
-how you don't see how much I hate this
-how you haven't known this for the past fucking 3 years
-how you have forgotten everything we've talked about
-how you have forgotten how I left
-how you have forgotten that night when you rubbed my back and said "i know julie"
-how you have forgotten all the things said that night
-how you have forgotten how much I told you that night
-how you have forgotten how much I told you being here caused me pain
-how you don't want me to be happy
-how you think my future is to satisfy you
-how you think I've worked hard for four years for you
-how you think I'm not exploring options.

Just admit it, you don't want this for me.
Stop trying to blame it on something, YOU DON'T WANT THIS FOR ME.

God, that's the one thing I detest; You going back on your words.
Your words for the last four years of my life. Agreeing with me on how much I hated this place, on how much you were behind me on getting out.
And now it's like you would do anything to not have that happen.
I have waited so long for this moment, and I'm sorry but you controll the decision, and you don't understand how much it hurts to watch it being ripped away from me.
I don't understand why you think it doesn't matter to me that much. I yelled/cried in the car for 30 minutes because you didn't get it. you didn't get how much I crave that. I don't know how to get it through to you.

I acted like an adult, rash and level headed, and still I am the one who ends up in tears with residue running down my face.
Why?
I saw your point of view, I tried it.
I DOESN'T WORK AND YOU KNOW IT.

So why after all the evidence is there, can't you just support me like you said you would.
Please, why are you letting me down.