Conclusion- My life would be about 75% easier if I knew what people really honestly thought about me. Because then I wouldn't have to make decisions on a perceived guess and make a mess of things!

If I would have known honestly how certain people feel about me, ugh, I would never have messed up so much.

I am so dense sometimes, about feelings of adoration and such. Why does it never click when someone cares for me more than in a friendly way and then when it is put out on the table I am suddenly caught off gaurd. Resulting in my response being pulled out of my ass, and ending up sounding like words jumbled together. And I try to leave it open-ended so I mean nothing by it until I can further think about it, but in actuality I just left someone feeling like a stub and ruined what was ever consisted of their pride.

I feel like screaming because I am Julia Ellen Green: Utterly the most confusing person on the face of the planet.

At least I have accomplished something.