everyone has left for Chicago :(


this weekend was good though.
Friday I actually worked, and it wasn't too bad, once the children fell asleep. But I had a hard time not falling asleep. But I made really good money, so it was completely worth it.

Saturday I woke up pretty early and cleaned the whole upstairs. It was sickening how bad I let it go. A complete mess and clutter of shit. Then I fought the christmas shoppers crowd and went out to pick up a few more gifts for everyone.
When I got back I fell right into my bed and drifted into a nap. I love dreaming. It's probably one of the few times I feel safe in my own body. I wish my life was really what happened in my dreams. Things make sense and they're logic in my head in dreams.
I woke up and Cassi wanted to know if I wanted to go with her to pick her mom up from the Airport. So we battled the traffic to DFW. Haha singing along to The Goodnights with Mr. Oberloier. Aww Patrick. He was a nervous wreck, smoking and freaking out before we got there. Haha.

"I'm falling in and out of love with you, I've never loved someone the way I loved youuuuu" The musical sounds of Alicia Keys. Ha, she is so brillaint, I don't care if she's R&B and too cool for me, I love her voice.

Anyways, we went back to Cassi's and she packed and I ate a bowl of ice cream yum. We watched part of the notebook and christmas with the Kranks with her parents, then headed back to my house.

We concocted a good acoholic drink with some svedka vodka. Mmm, tasted so good. I love that feeling of drinking. Ah! It's the way your stomach feels when you're in love, but just more warm. Ah, can't get enough of it. Then we met Cam at starbucks. His mom got me a necklace for christmas, it's cute.
Then my mother called twice so I needed to go home and call her from the house or else she wouldn't believe me I was doing what I was supposed to do. Ha, so we did that, then watched tv for a while and shit.

Then I retreated upstairs when a sudden rush of drowsiness came over me. I smoked for a while then put it out and made some dinner around 12:30. Some pasta and stuff. I finally decided to just quit waiting and go to bed. Whatever.

That's just what bothers me. Just say something, Don't leave me hanging. That's rude.


"When the rain comes pouring down and my heart is hurting, you will always be around, this i know for certain, i dont worry cause everythings gunna be alright people keep talking they can say what they like but i all i know is everythings gunna be alright." alicia guurrrrrrrrrl you so good.

"I know some people search the wor;d to find something like what we have i know people will try try to divide something so real so till the end of time I'm telling you no one, no one, no one, will get in the way of what I feel for youuuuuu"

Hahah I really like that song, it really pertains to nothing in my life, but I still sing it all the time.