i feel as though lately i've been going, i don't know, fast? That's not the right word but whatever.

i realized recently i need to soak up everything.
not take it all and run with it.
let everything settle.

i need people to know the real me.
i feel like people who think that they're close (exception of bestfriends) don't know who i really am. they only see me in one element. not my real life.

i wonder.
can you really appreciate someone fully with only knowing part of them.

no.
so why must i run with things.
i have strong feelings, but i shouldn't act upon them, because how do i know if they're true when i don't know really what the subject matter it is that im acting upon.

stop brain.