really too late

I don't know about this mood that I'm in is all about.
Lately things have been so great and I've kept my mind off things. But tonight, it's all sinking back in. So much is sinking back in.

It's all I can do to not burst out into tears. For what reason? I'm not really sure, everything, I guess? I met with Steven on thursday. The usual things happened. He wants to try again. I don't know what that will do to me. I'm not sure if its the right move. Half of me pushes yes, because I love him and I always have some yearning for him. Half of me holds onto the door because I know what will most likely come of it. We'll both get frusterated with a situation and I'll end up upset and put out and things will be called off.

I just want someone to love and take care of me.
I want it so bad. I want someone to want me.

So typical, its not even funny