97. Not going

To lose my state right now, not yet. I hear my parents constantly talking about my dad's job. The whole New Orleans deal was a bust, thank god. But the straight fact has come: The oil business in America is dying, slowly, but nevertheless, dying, drying up.

So the terms have come. My dad is not going to move up in his job anymore. It just can't happen in Dallas, Houston, New Orleans, anywhere. He won't get paid more anywhere. Anywhere really, except overseas. Namely, Africa.

Which comes to this. He's had two interviews already about rotating in Africa: 28 days in Africa- 28 days in America. This coming Saturday an actual head guy is coming to Dallas to talk things out with my Dad. Wow, it's actaully in the process. The thing is my dad is really serious about it. He really wants to go to South Africa.

My mom couldn't think of anything worse. She refuses to leave America, again. Holland was one thing. All of us(Will, Katie, and I) were little and had to go with him. It was feasable. Now we're all grown up and in College and whatnot. Spread across Texas. I understand she doesn't want to leave because if something happens with one of us here, what can she/my dad do? Nothing. They're around the globe.

I couldn't really think of anything worse than my dad leaving. Leaving my mom and I alone! My dad pretty much keeps us sane. We would tear each other apart. She refuses to stay here in Dallas if he rotates. She won't live here. She hates it more than I do. She wants to be close to family and friends: in The Woodlands. I couldn't really be more happy at the fact that if we moved anywhere, I would get to move back to my hometown, where half of my closest friends live. But then again, I don't really know if I could move.

As much as I hate to come to terms with it, my life is really here in Flower Mound. I have been planted here and proceeded to make my life here. It would be hard to rip my roots out and pick up and move.

I know that I plan to move away in a year anyways to college, but for that extra year, what would happen?

I know that seriously, none of this is final. It's just thoughts. That's why I'm not upset about it or anything. The time to worry will be if my dad comes up with anything after he talks to this expact guy.

Just when things start to make sense, and I'm content with everything, a thought like this pops up. I don't know really if I should believe it or rather want to believe it because a lot of these things come up from time to time. But if Dad called my grandmother tonight just to tell her this and nothing else, should I be worried?