Wishing

Currently wanting: To know Orenthal's real truth.

I read his book today, "If I Did It" and I really was taken aback by it.
I really had no Idea about all that had gone on in his life. Now that book, contrary to popular belief isn't written for his satisfaction. It is purely blood money collected by Nicole Brown's family and he takes respsonsibility for all domestic violence.

I guess I don't recall much from the actual time period of the murder, and the murder trial and all the investigation that went along at the time, considering I was around 5 or 6( I do remember my parents saying "the simpson trial is on" and my brother sister and i running for the tv because we thought it was the Simpsons hah). But I have watched alot of tv shows in my free time on A&E and such that showcased the alleged murder.

I honestly had no idea how much their marraige suffered. the book showcased letters from Nicole shortly after she had sent divorce papers feeling regret for breaking up and admiting to their stressed and failed relationship was mainly due to her part, or lack thereof.

I talked with my parents about it tonight when we had dinner, and they asked me if I thought he was guilty or not. And I blatently said no. when they asked me why I laughed and said "If the glove don't fit, you must aquit". But really, sometimes I believe he really didn't murder them. But then again all the evidence works against him.

He said at the end of the trial, that he would spend every oppertune moment he had and every dollar he owned and every inch of dedication to finding the real murderer in this crime.

Why he didn't live up to that I don't know.

But my one real wish in this world, is that maybe someday before he or I dies, I want him to tell me the real honest to god truth. Even if that means I have to see him in heaven(or such a place) to know, then so be it. But I want to know. Because I Stood up for him, and I want to know if my heart is in the right place.