Hm

I guess I am just mad at myself. I mean how can I really blame today's modern society?

I can only blame myself for such an intorlerable act, because it is infact, my fault.

My parents are going to their anual holiday festive parties. Since my dad is really important to his job and his customers he really tkaes care of them and makes sure they have a good, safe time. So every year when they have these parties that run till 2 or 3 in the wee hours, he gets hotel rooms so no one drives and gets hurt or whatever.

And every year I sit at home on these nights and just chill at home. This year will be different however, because my sister won't be there. She usualy threw something at our house, where I would end up coming home at midnight to a house full of drunks/stoners. Which is hey all fine with me, I wasn't expected to be held accountable for that and nothing ever went wrong.

I think we all know how I stand with drugs and the use of them, and how I sometimes percieve people who use regularly. Now I do have the right to form the opinion that I have, seeing as I watched my brother fuck up his life on drugs and such. I do have the view point and the information to make my views. If I was some stupid preteen who quoted "drugz are bad, don't do them" I would slap myself as well, but I don't feel that way. I just feel like yeah go do your drugs, but don't do them with me, near me, or be on them with me or near me. It's just cause I don't like getting involved with that stuff.

The times I have gotten involved haven't ended that well, and I don't want to mess with that stuff again.

So this year I was thinking of holding a little get together at my parent's place the night of the parties so I wouldn't be bored out of my mind. And by get together, I simple mean "get together". NOTHING more. Just some good quality friends hanging out watching movies, playing games you know. I mean sure there would probably have been a few sips of something along the way. But we can all handle that, and I know they people who I would want involved can handle that.

Iguess it's only my fault because I advertised it. But I love how once people hear of a free location, they suddenly become your best friend. Not because its a place without parental guidance, not because it's a place everyone else is going, but because it's a place they can get their next fill.

They're not intrested except to get that next high.

So whatever, I hope you know if you are one of those people how I feel about you.
You won't be welcome, plain and simple.

So the get together continues and I seriosuly welcome everyone, I want to have a great night with loads of fun and maybe some wine here or there ;) but if you show up at my door with that pipe in hand, or whatever, don't be surprised when it's shut right in your face.

No one thinks you're fucking great cause you shoot up.
especially me, way to lose my respect.


-edit- i have friends that smoke and such, and im okay with that, i never said i have to have straight edge friends, its just, they know not to come into my house or around my family high or with drugs on them. its just common curtesy guys