I'm coming into a darker side in myself, but feeling better than normally. typically, I would take that as a bad sign, seeing as how that sounds cynical, but I want to ride this out. The feeling is straight forward and for once, I'm happy at where I am and where I've stopped temporarily.

I now know I really don't need what I've been missing in my life. From recent , embarassing events, I have recieved massive ammounts of closure on the subject. With a swift drive home, escaping an uncomfortable situation, I was able to let my emotions win and decide that fate doesn't want me to be there with them so I shouldn't. and Won't.

And now things are better than usual. I have a sturdy relationship with my best friend. It's perfect for me. We're closer and it's really what I've been wanting. Work is fine, and my bank account hearty. Now all I need is for him to come home so everything will be set.

College isn't scaring me either.